Well i finally told my best friend that i was bisexual and I thought she would understand bc she moved to japan and was coming back for a visit and we still clicked and stuff. So i thought i would tell her b4 she would leave but she told me to get away from her and calling me gross. It felt like 1004268851 knives stabbed me in heart and sliting my throat. I......just really hurt me and It got me thinking what if everyboby else does that to me what will my mom say, my sister and brothers,dad,grandma,aunts , uncles. Espcially my grandma she told me that she hopes neither me and my sister were gay cause she found out that one of her friends daughters were and stuff. I just feel like I need someone to help me out. I tried to change but when i see some of the girls at my school i ....i don't know. The other day at school my teacher sat at her desk and i was the only that can actually look behind it bc thats were my desk is, anyway she had crossed her legs slowly and once they were her dress kinda raised and i seen her skin and i just couldnt look away. who knows maybe i just need to think of females as monster. idk I just feel awful........